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     Lingering in that photo...

In that simple shot
I look, and I see a woman.
I am not a woman.

I have never worked for a lifestyle,
given birth for an allowance
I have never truly loved a man.
I am not a woman.

I do not have the means to
     Transport
myself
to wake, feel the calling..(oh, it calls, but I do not answer)
and move, move, move
until I reach a place of
astonishing beauty.
I am not a woman.

Sometimes, I still take the
     Weight
of my childhood and
place it on shoulders of
self-doubt.

and
Sometimes, I remember the way
lifting builds me up.
But I am not a woman.

     Lingering in that photo...

A wisdom of some sort
has trickled into my features
I see glimpses of it now.

In that momentary shot,
I look, and see memories there
In the darkness of my eyes.
In the taming of my smile.
In the strain stretched over my brow.
I am not a child.

And I am not a woman.
So serious lately :no:

Edit: Wow! I am so surprised and astonished at all of your kind words and encouragement. I feel so honored to have received such recognition and am ever so grateful! Transformed a crappy day(and crappy week) into a happy one, just knowing so many read and loved this piece of me and saw it within themselves. Thank you all :heart: hugs for each and every one of you: :tighthug:

Edit 12/5/13: Changed second line, removing "(still, I feel the bullet there)." It felt way too cliche from the moment I first wrote it, and I still cannot stand it to this day, so decided finally to remove it.
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Daily Deviation

Given 2013-05-21
~WillowPen contemplates the awkward place between childhood and adulthood and its independence along with the societal qualifiers for being a 'woman' in What Am I? ( Featured by Nichrysalis )
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::iconlainloveplz::iconflyingheartsplz: :clap::clap::clap:
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
:blowkiss:
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconflyingheartsplz::blowkiss::iconflyingheartsplz:
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abie1295 Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so sad I didn't join deviantart earlier. There's so many talented people here. It's true place of art. Your poem as well. This is how the heart talks. It's like a song with no music but plays deep melody!!
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm flattered you place me as one of the talented :giggle: DA is a wonderful place. You can really find a niche here. Glad you finally joined! :D
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abie1295 Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
;-) , thanks for the welcome.!
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Student General Artist
haha :D
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GenzouHunterssonn Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wonderful!

Congratulations for the new Daily Deviation!
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:iconwordofthewillow:
wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you :rose:
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spider123357 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Writer
Congrats on the DD
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:iconwordofthewillow:
wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you for taking the time to read it :)
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Lantis-Erin Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is really beautiful. There's so much here that I can relate to, and you express it in such a moving way. Very well done. :)
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Glad to have succeeded :D Thank you.
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DemiTheGreat Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Awesome...
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks :D
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DemiTheGreat Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
no prob!
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white-blank-slate Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I can feel the melancholy and confusion seeping through this piece...very well written. :heart: I love it; thank you for writing.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
And thank you for reading :) It's good to hear that you enjoyed it so.
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white-blank-slate Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're quite welcome; it was my pleasure. :)
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Karinta Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student General Artist
Wow... that's very good. I applaud you. It's introspective yet very accessible.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Those are some thoughtful words, thank you for reading and replying! :heart:
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Karinta Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
You are welcome! :hug:
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MariaB9 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I love this poem. I found myself a little bit in it for I am in that kind of period when it often happens to realise that I don't know myself anymore.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
I know how you feel. The transition period seems to continue on forever, doesn't it? I guess we are always in a state of growth - the question is just which states we're in between at any given time.
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MariaB9 Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It actually seems pretty bad at times and I am so unstable. I just go to one state to another in a short time and I noticed that I have changed.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm really fickle too and I change my mind a lot. My heart always seems to stay the same, though, which is probably good. I should listen to it more often :D
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MariaB9 Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Listening to your heart is good, but you also need to think things out sometimes.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Very true.
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SaimGraphics Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Deep feelings
expressed Nicely
Love It
Congrats on DD
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks so much :D
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brain-tree Featured By Owner May 21, 2013   General Artist
This is really great stuff, deep and carefully placed. Excellent work.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you, I truly value your words.
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tylerp1991 Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
ey thas well written
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks :)
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Alkraas Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on the DD :happybounce:
Much deserved ;)
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Glad you think so :D Thank you
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Hiland-Rose Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Professional Artisan Crafter
I remember feeling like this when I was a teenager....I still feel it sometimes even though I am married and have children of my own. I never seem to get "there" wherever that is. At some point though, one comes to grips with it and finds a way to make peace with the fact that there is an ideal but no one really ever can meet it. You just have to try to be the best person you can be and let the rest go. I love this because it articuates something I think we all go through. Thank you for sharing this.

Blessings.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Always climbing to the peak it seems, and instead of getting closer, the mountain grows taller. Thank you for your insight. I appreciate you leaving such a comment behind.
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MafiaVamp Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
Congratulations on the DD, dear! I enjoyed reading this piece a lot and it sure does stirr certain wonderings.
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm so very glad! So nice to hear such things :)
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Alp Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:thumbsup:
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
:D
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Infinitai Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Student Artist
Congrats on the Daily Deviation!
Hope to see more! :aww:
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks a bunch! You'll be seeing more for sure :meow:
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LBPFreak Featured By Owner May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
(Ignore my other comment) This iOS such a beautiful piece of yours, so very wonderful, in many ways..
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Well thank you! But...iOS?
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LBPFreak Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Umm..Im not sure how "iOS" Got there...
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Heheheh..
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I think it autocorrected from "is" so it should read "This is such a beautiful piece of yours..."
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